Conviction

So lately a lot of things have been on mind, in fact I'd even say I've been convicted.

One of the most evident is that I have been convicted to once again try and get this blog going. I really have a problem with telling myself , "I'll do that tomorrow..." whatever it may be. Although I'll admit it's usually the things that require physical exhertion, like exercise or house work. I think if I just stick to blogging and really put myself out there I will feel more accountable for the promises I make to myself. I guess I feel like the invisible readers who may see this would be disappointed if they didn't one day read that I did in fact start a regular exercise regimen or whatever I promised myself I would do "one day".

I even have the "one day" list in a draft to be posted soon so everyone can see.

So here I am revamping this blog. I have taken a much more personal turn with the theme if you cannot tell by my decor and new name. I think people often get tired of hearing my long banter but it does me good to get it our there, even if "there" is cyberspace and some random stranger reads this, it won't really matter as long as the thoughts and ideas get out of my head. I've found I sleep much better getting all these thoughts out, so hopefully I can stick this. I am counting on all those who actually know me and read this to help a little, for those of you who know me best, consistency is not my best feature especially when it comes to starting something new.

And for my English major husband, grammar and writing are also not my strong suit. So you will see tons of comma splices', subject verb disagreement and various other horrible writing errors. Please be kind and overlook, thanks in advance.

So as the season of Lent is upon us I have been struggling on what I will commit to forgo for 40 days. I will tell you a little bit about what I decided but not everything. For you see I decided not to tell anyone what I am really doing for lent. This is probably a huge thing for me, because I cannot keep a secret or a thought to myself even if I was threatened with death.  Which I can tell you I already haven't kept this part of my vow since I told Karissa the other night. So I guess my new goal is to keep it to one person, see what I mean about consistency?

So back to the plan. I decide this year instead of "giving up" something, I was going to purposefully add something to my everyday life. No, blogging is not the thing I added, but once I added that one thing I became convicted to add another thing, and then another. It's very empowering to see yourself achieve these things that you constantly make excuses as to why you couldn't do them previously.

I also decided that I wanted to observe the "no meat on Friday" tradition of Lent. Now we are Methodist in denomination and that tradition is respected but not expected of our faith. There was no real faith based reason as to why I wanted to do this, I simply just wanted to experience it since I have never done it before. A little strange I guess, but I do find that I focus more on Christ and what His Passion really meant for me. Just to be clear, there is little to no sacrifice in eating fish on Fridays since I would eat fish every single day of the week for all three meals a day if I could. In fact, I think I did that when we were in the keys, this last time. Oddly enough, it seems to be doing the job it was meant for, although I have to admit that I have wanted a greasy cheeseburger a time or two. Poor Zachery has graciously agreed to join me in this dedication, so it's no meat in the Robert's home on Fridays until Easter. Then I'm assuming we will have steak to celebrate, :)

Will keep you posted on  my progress!